
If I say that I don't miss, I'm lying. I do, I am.
I miss the moments, I miss "Me".
"Me" was so familiar..
Every morning used to start the same way.
Waking up. Doing morning rounds of FB patrol.
Getting ready. Rushing to the office.
Elevator queue. Five, fifteen minutes. Depends on luck.
One, two, three attempts with the old finger prints machine.
Morning greetings. Coffee. Toilet runaways.
Pantry Gossip. Never ending photo shots.
Non-quality breakfasts. 10k worth of lunch. Cityloft nights.
Desperate sighs. Boring times. Enthusiasm.
Work. Laugh. Dreams. I miss the moments.
All four bosses. Miss Gaptek. Partner in Crime.
Eagle Eye. McSilly. Pak RT. Miss Nasi Lemper.
Excel. Work. PPT. Corel. Autocad.
Surveys. Draft. Finalized. Deadlines.
All rings and rhymes so familiarly.
..and now "me" is gone.
Needing a redefinition.
I need to know who "me" will be.
Where "me" will go.
What will change, what will stay.
All the same, yet all is different.
Until I find, until I define.
Not daring to tangle into anything. Anyone.
Not wanting everything to tumble down.
Looking a place to lay my anchor.
Trying my best staying awake to chase a dream.
Learn to fluttering like a butterfly.
Leaving trails of moments.
Touching heart by heart.
Leaving memories to hatch.
From a caterpillar to a butterfly.
Metamorphosis. We change. People change.
Yet deep inside we are still the same.
I'm learning to let go. Learning to set free.
If it comes back, if you come back. If it stays, if you stay.
Believe that if it's mine to keep. You're mine to keep.
People come and go. Memories fade away. Moments pass.
..yet all I can taste is this moment.
All that I need is this moment.
Coz sooner or later it's over.
Everything will be gone and done.
Another day "Me" will change again.
Moments, are all we need. All that matters.
Taste, appreciate, honor. Each moment.
Before you miss, before you need to redefine.
Note:
My mind.. Goo Goo Dolls & Denny Duquette's "Moments. That's all you get with the people you love." (Grey's Anatomy). In the spirit of missing "me" yet excited to find out how high "me" *could* fly. I'm excited, to chase a dream. Life is bittersweet.. *sigh & smile*
I miss my life for the past 1,5 years. I miss my colleagues. I miss our moments. I miss everything. Like I said, it's not a goodbye. Anyway, we're still connected by (the amazing) thing called the Internet (and FB). Somehow I feel that I'm still there with you guys. :)
Anyway, for those who said they like my notes, thank you. I heart you. <3